How i should talk to my family about religon

Today has not had anything exciting happen. Dinner with my dad got pushed to sunday so i have some time to think about what iam going to say. I am not sure how he will react when i tell him what i have learned from the book i have been reading. No one else in my family is religous so i dont plan on telling them becsuse they may not understand.

Thoughts on Tomorrow and My Family

I am going to see my dad tomorrow and I am really nervous. The last time I saw him was on gradation day in May. I am not sure how to tell him that I have been reading this great book and its changing my life and I am now starting to see things differently. I don’t know how he’ll react because he stopped going to church after my mom died also. I think hes still mad at god for what happened. I am not mad I just don’t understand why it had to happen and without any warning. I am pretty sure with all the drugs they had her on I don’t think she knew who we were or what was going on. I guess I am not mad I just have not accepted what has happened which is really sad because its been so long. I hate when people ask about my parents because if I tell them the truth they will think I am just some crazy person but in reality I am not because none of that was on purpose. Anyways I haven’t even told my sister that I have read the bible or even believe in god. I did tell my aunt and my other “aunt” like friend and they thought it was wonderful because I would fine more people like me and it would also help me deal with my past. I don’t think that anyone else in my family would understand but I can only hope they will. 

Dear god, Please give me the strength I need for tomorrow and to get me through a difficult time. I also want to ask that you keep my friends in your thoughts because they mean a lot to me. Also keep my aunt in your thoughts because she is about to start her treatment all over again Monday. Keep our other friend in your thoughts he is having surgery today for his back and I know he will be okay.

Accepting What has Happened and Trying to Patch Things Up.

I have been thinking about what I have read in the bible and I think its time for me to accept what has happened to me in the past. I am considering that I need to out to lunch with  my dad and just tell him that I did not like what he did to us but that I now know it was gods doing. I know now that if it would not have happened I probably would not be in college working on my masters and I would not have come back to god the way I have now. I think that I will never be able to completely forgive him because it was horrible when I lived there and I was afraid to go home after every school day. I do not think I will feel the same way about him anymore because he does still that is so immature and only to make people feel bad about themselves for not helping him and I do not want to feel that way. I think that with time I will come to see that god has really helped me by bringing these terrible situations to me because even though I could not handle them at the time I can now learn through his love that it happened for a reason and I cant change what happened but I can change my outlook toward those events. I also know that now I really do have someone watching over me and its not just god. Sometimes I feel like I did something to disappointed them but I know that he all ready knew what was going to happen so I know that he forgives me and I learn not to those things again.

Now a small prayer: Dear God, I would like to say think you for keeping me in your heart and thoughts through out everything he though I gave up on you a long time ago. I know now that I should not have done that and I will be trying to straighten everything up with my family. Please keep them in your thoughts you know what they are going through. One of them has surgery tomorrow and I hope you will get him through it and back to his regular old self. Keep my aunt in your thoughts she goes back to chemo Monday and I know that it wipes her out all over again. Thank you for my friends in Chi Alpha because without their love, patience and understanding I would not have been able to come back to you. I know you put them in my life so I could love you again. Please forgive me for whatever I have done wrong some things I know I did wrong but other things I have not realized it yet. I trying to be a better person and keep up what you expect of me. Amen.

My Journey with God and My New Love for Him

I finally have finished reading the New Testament and I have to say that it is wonderful to see how god loves us. He keeps us safe and helps us get through the problems we encounter every day. For me I now know that everything I went through was for a reason. If I had not have gone through that I would not be were I am today. I am still unsure about one aspect of it and I am still kinda of confused about why my aunt had to be the one that got sick. But I know that whatever happens he will protect me and be there for me even when I am sad or afraid. I think now I can reexamine my life and the people who I felt that have hurt me because I know that god would not want me to hold a grudge or blame other people for what I have gone through. I have been able to come through a lot of serious situations from the time I was born. I know that god was there the whole way and even though I strayed away from him for awhile because I was hurt and angry he brought me back through the people I have met in school. 

I would like to think god for everything he has done for me. I know he keeps my family safe and watches over us. I know that he will keep my aunt safe and that he will take away the cancer that she has. I am also thankful for my friends that I have made that have helped me love him again. I am glad that he has brought me back to him and showed me that he never left even though I thought that he did not care for my family for what we had to go through.  Amen.

Summer almost over and why I haven’t been on for a long time

So I finally graduated with my Bachelors in May and now I am starting my Masters in August. I haven’t been on all summer because I have been helping my family a lot because they all got sick at the end of last semester so I’ve been there to help out whenever they need me. Anyways today is an important day in the world of baseball. The All-star game is today and I am rooting for the American League. The Rangers have 3 players going: Yu Darvish, Nelson Cruz, and Joe Nathan. It will be a good game to watch because we would like home field advantage for the world series (which hopefully we will get back to this year). I have also been reading a great book that one of my groups of friends got me to read. I am almost done with the second half of the book and I will start the first half which is much longer later on in the semester. I am glad to say that I am now religious and I do believe very much and I think it will help me with my past and also right now and in the future. I will post later but not much exciting has happened since we are all taking care of my aunt and watching her closely so no symptom even if its small goes unnoticed. But we still have fun when her days are good for example we got to go out to eat and watch my grandfather dance at his senior center and it was great because I know she does not get very many outings except to doctor visits. Think of us because we are going through a lot and every day is a new day to see how she will feel. 🙂 ❤ ❤

Change to the DSM for Autstic Disorders

Change to the DSM for Autstic Disorders

This could really affect anybody who will be working with people who have autism. I did not know that they were tightening the guidelines to this. It will change a lot of things with this. As someone who is going into social work I decide to take the mental health route because I want to work with disability and this is really interesting to me because I know how important the DSM is to anyone working in the mental health profession

Abuse at Texas Institutions for Disabled

Abuse at Texas Institutions for Disabled

I am not sure who will read this but I just want to raise this issue up because I couldn’t believe this was still happening. I am taking a History class that is specific to people with disabilities and today we were talking about the movement to get institutionalize state centers that held people with disabilities (mainly cognitive impairments). I started thinking does Texas have any of these state institutions still running. After using google and I found this article that talks about the abuse that still goes on at these places (that are now called supported living centers). I am surprised that people still put up and let this happen to people with disabilities. I hope that one day this can be stopped because they are citizens just like everybody else. As a potential graduate student in social work I want to work with people with disabilities and I want to help make sure these kinds of things dont happen to them anymore.

End of School Year!!

So I have not posted since over the summer because school has gotten crazy and I started another job at my schools bookstore. Anyways  I have about 3 weeks of school left and then I graduate May 11th. I got accepted into grad school for social work and I will be working on my Masters next fall. I am pretty stressed out because I feel that I am  not doing as well as I could be doing. I have all B’s but to me that’s not good enough. I got inducted into the DAPi honor society which is Delta Alpha Pi honor society. I will also get inducted into another one next week called NSLS which is National Society of Leadership and Success. This is really good for me because I transferred over to UTA (University of Texas at Arlington) with a 2 GPA and now I have a 3.2. I am happy that school is almost over because I will have 2 months to relax and just work which will be pretty easy. I will try and post something every day or at least every week if I can. I dont know how many people will read these but for me they may be a good source for me to explain what is going on in  my life. Most importantly its BASEBALL SEASON!!! GO RANGERS!!! 😀 ❤ ❤

1 day till move in

I have 1 day left to move into my new apartment. This semester is going to be fun but tough because this is my last semester as an undergrad and i am applying for grad school on top of that. I just hopes everything works out because ive really worked hard in school. Its been tough but ive enjoyed college way more than high school.

About Myself

I am a college student at University of Texas at Arlington I am a senior and I will finish up this fall semester and walk the stage in the spring. I am working on a general degree because of my learning disabilities a regular one is much harder for me. I am applying and hoping to get to the Masters program for social work for next spring 2013. I think I would make a great social worker because I have experience in having a tough background (which you will find out along the way). I like to be different from other people.I consider myself as a hippie; I listen to oldies music (50s, 60s, and 70s) and  I watch old reruns of shows made in the 60s and 70s plus cartoons that were also made through that time period. I believe in aliens along with Roswell New Mexico and Area 51. My life is crazy because of college and family. When I am not studying which is a rare site I usually hangout with my friends and when I go home to visit family we usually go out to eat and then stay inside playing board games with a little bit of happy hour sometime during the week.I started this blog to help other people who may be going through hard times and help people better understand me.